Things I know I do wrong....Charles

1. I get too comfortable with temporary relief. I will waste hours when I think I am okay financially and then all of a sudden when its not I want to work again, but in fear.

2. I have grown to not like people, I been let down so much because of the stupidity and need for people to be right at any costs that I would rather sit in my home than to talk to anyone other than close family members or my kids. My ex wife reluctantly listen to me, but would always come back with something inappropriate and so I would close down.

3. I need to open up my mouth more, I hate rejection even though when I get comfortable I really have some positive results, I am like one of those prop planes, I putter before I get going.

4. The glass if half full, I need to believe in this totally, I get so freaked out that sometimes I forget that I have a lot going for me and I become empty.

Someone please open my mouth!!!!!!!!!

I am smart, I know more than want to and not enough of what I need to. Here in lies the problem, the difference in being rich and being poor is how much you say about what you have learned. Opening my mouth and selling my dream to someone who is going to buy it. I really need to do more talking and less sole searching.

Lost my job today......

Cool....Sometimes somethings aren't meant to be. It was good while it lasted and toward the end I was counting down the moments in which I could leave the hell I was getting myself into. Thank God for pulling me out before I lost my sanity. This has been one hell of a year...Charles

Just plain lazy....

Day by day I know I am getting better, the inner tormoil that wants me to give up, that wants to work, that wants to make myself better, and that wants to say for what. I am whinny today sometimes I get this way, tired of being the strong one all the time. Things are getting better I know, I am not this age because I wanted to, I am this age because God still has a purpose for me and I am not done yet. I really can't wait until things get better and I can play 18 holes of golf without shame again...Right now I am just plain lazy, tomorrow I will do better.

Monkey Bars.....Charles

It made it a little easier to deal with, being divorced from someone you loved, but I watched this comedian who in his act basically told me who my ex really was and that was a real cold and calculating bitch and that it was good that she was gone. I titled this monkey bars because in his act he used this analogy to show me exactly what had happened to me, and that was she held on to me long enough til she had a firm grip on the next rung. I am a good man, was good to my ex, great to my kids and good to people. Sure I had my faults admittedly, but I did not and do not deserve what I have been getting. I wish her the best, but I am now starting to feel better about getting on with my life without her. Charles

Incorrect....Charles

I am sorry I did not mean to interupt you while you were trying on shoes, I just noticed these kids you may or may not know in your car and it is a little hot. Let me know if I am incorrect.

I am sorry you are having this cheeseburger it looks very tasty by the way, there is one problem though don't you weigh about 600 pounds, I know people have told you this before, "you are fat" and what you are doing is incorrect.....

Okay I got one more tonight and I will stop, I know it is hot outside, but I noticed your 8 cars in your yard, under it the dead grass and motor oil, oh yes I got a quick question why does not any of your cars have wheels under them, the concrete blocks must make them hard to drive I am sure. Maybe it is just me, but I am sure this is in some way incorrect.....

Criminally Insane....Charles (Don Imus and Shooter)

Never to make light of recent events, but if you don't laugh you will cry. So I will let you be the judge.....

First Don Imustsaysomethingstupid....As a black man, yes a black man not a African American, never been there, if you would like to call me an Ohio American Nero, this sounds cool, but stupid...I'll just stay with black man..Thank you very much. I was a big fan of his show, I am not now not because of what he said, but because the hypocrites at KlanBS(CBS) fired him and I can't listen to him anymore. What does the bible say, let he who lives in glass house purchase not next to a quarry. As far as Don I wish him all the well, to me you should be able to say what you want to say, that way we all know who not to invite to the barbeque....

As far as the tragic event at Va. Tech this past week, I am so sorry for the families, friends and all those effected by the recent tragedy, I don't see how you cannot be affected in some way shape or form. Funny how now we all notice the signs that this guy was about to go off(after the shootings), his writings were dark, he was stalking two women, there were no dogs or squirrels left on campus. My ex wife struck my bed eight times with a aluminum bat, when all I asked was that she help my son with his homework, the next day she was OUT!!!!!!!(think umpire this is a baseball analogy), when God calls me and tells me to run home, I was going to make sure I was not a HOMERUN.....CRIMINALLY INSANE......CHARLES